Hi do you know who I am now? I am currently working as Enrolled nurse in Khoo Teck Puat as in short form term is KTPH. Yes, I am a nurse but a junior. Cause I just joined in recently and now its the third week of working. Im starting my night shift this week. That was really fast, huh!

Let me share with you a little story about my not so long experience. Well, basically, the first day of work you will feel nervous and you have no idea which ward you are posted to. What is in my mind on the very first day was extremely nervous and I kept thinking of which ward will I be posted to. I was hoping that I am posted on the same ward with Sabrena or at least somewhere near to her ward. But sadly, I am m not the same ward as her or even near to her. I am at the next building of her which is Tower B. I am posted on a medical ward.

I am very lost when one of the office worker show me the direction of the ward that I will be working at. I am not use to the environment cause it seems that everything is so new to me. Of course, my trademark of my facial expression is seriously sotong. I was all alone and yes I feel so lonely. But I got my preceptor to guide and thank God, my preceptor is a very nice person. (: I am very lucky, indeed! Still, the feeling is so different when I am a student nurse and now passed out as Enrolled Nurse. All the fun and silly things that I did with my friends during attachment always, is no more for me now. There was a big differences.

The big differences is since I am an Enrolled Nurse, I have a responsibility to do and I need to really focus on my job.

I have 6 months of probation and in between that, I need to go for some courses and that will be like what I've studied in ITE time. So, what we called is Induction programme. I hope this time, my induction will be the same date as Sabrena & Sulastri so that we can sit together and really study.

I hope I can do my very best between this 6 months and make my family proud of me. Amin.

I can't live apart from you. You are my pillar of strength and you've been always there for me every time. I am thankful and appreciate to have such a boyfriend like you.

But I don't want to feel like I am taking advantage of your kindness. But I guess I did.

I know its been always me who make a nuisance and you have to overcome my anger and handle me at my worst. Yet, you still show me that you still care even if I am such a bitch. Sometimes, I don't know what is wrong with me especially when I am having unpredictable mood swings or bad temper. I can't control my emotions whenever I am having those atrocious feelings.

You have bring so much of variety colors to my life. Thank God, i've finally found someone who cares and very loving. Someone who love me for who I am. I have the feeling that you are my mr. right. I have the feeling that you will be my last boyfriend. Cause we have made our promises and promise to each other that we want to live together till the end.

Dear Haiqal, i am madly, deeply, truly in love with you.

Happy 3 monthsary to us! (':

Its difficult for me to explain how much I miss my boyfriend here. Even that I've met him yesterday. Almost everyday we meet each other since both of us are so free. Boyfriend is on MC for a month due to his fractured bone. As for me, Im still enjoying my life rotting at home while waiting for my first day of work on 14 March as enrolled nurse. So yes, I finally got the job! Only God knows how extremely happy I was! Thanks to my beloved family, beloved boyfriend and my lovely bestfriends for supporting me. I seriously I felt like giving up, but they've been always there to pull me up again & continue hoping. I appreciate everyone's kindness. Will remember it all the time.

I love my life now. So far so good. Im very much thankful with what i have now. God has answered my prayers and Im very happy, indeed! (: Thanks Allah.

Anyways, yesterday i went to NUH alone & meet Haiqal over there. I, as a girlfriend, being very sweet willing to go with him for his appointment early in the morning. Good news is that Alhamdulillah, so far the bone is healing! Cause he's been drinking milk almost everyday. :D Lucky cause he have a girlfriend who is a nurse. I can take care of him. So he needs to come back one month later for another check up and hopefully,his bone is healing within the month. Im gonna pray hard for his best..(': It hurts me alot to see him suffer the pain alone..

Its 12:39am. Thought of listening to MJ12 but i got scared. so i switched off. Haiqal is sleeping soundly cause he's feeling sick. Maybe a mild fever and runny nose. Get well soon, sayang!

Nowdays i get so angry over a small thing and easily get so offended. i don't know whats wrong with me. maybe pms occured. its getting worst. i can't even control my anger seriously. sometimes, im being so damn sarcastic towards Haiqal for no reason. i love trying to find someone's fault. & then, i also need a punching bag. i always do that to my boyfriend. ): im so sorry. i don't mean it. i hope you still can bear with my nuisance sayang. :( i really love you. haiqal my love.

Assalamualaikum

I want you to know how much you mean to me. But its frustrating cause I can't explain to you how I feel! All I can say is you are only one kind of amazing boyfriend I had. You can handle me at my worst and Im very proud to have a boyfriend like you. I can not stop loving you haiqal. I feel hurt when I get to know that you cry for me. Im terribly sorry cause I've made your tears dropped. )':

i love you muhammad haiqal bin hatif!
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Hi. I know its been so long and I went missing for quite sometime. Im not busy but Im very lazy to update like how I used to be back then. Well, I have my own diary to write anyway so I neglected my blog. I jotted down everything in the diary.

I want to be the girl you're scared to lose, the girl you can't stop bragging about to all your family and friends, the first thought on your mind every morning, the reason why you can't fall asleep because your mind is filled with thoughts of her, the reason why you lose sleep every night, the girl who you keep your eye out for 24/7, the girl that will make your heart pound when you see her and hear her voice, the girl that will give you butterflies in your tummy, the girl who you hold so delicately in your arms, the girl you put your hands around, the girl you can't live without, the girl you're willing to die for, the one and only girl you'll ever love, the one where you'll be like, " yep, that's my girl. "

Baby, thanks for being there for me, ALWAYS. Even the ups and downs. I appreciate what you have done and your sacrifices just for me. You are really a sweet and awesome boyfriend. You bring so much happiness to my life. Every moment, my love for you grows stronger and deeper. I am truly, madly, deeply in love with you Haiqal. I hope we could last forever. I want you to be my last and I'll be the last for you too. To me, you are a wonderful guy that I've ever met. You are also a full of patience boyfriend although its always me who created so much of problems. Until I make you stress. :/ You are different baby.

I hate missing you. I hate the feeling that you are faraway from me. I hate that I can't see you that much. I hate your absence. But I can't force you to come and see me everyday. You have your own life too. I wish you can spend and stay with me 24/7 and never get tired of it. Life will be so good, isn't it?

I can't really find the words to explain when I heard your voice and also when I see your face. All I can say is that I like the feeling.

You are my definition of love baby. Thank you so much for brightening my life with your love...
You are amazing just the way you are..

With love,
Mazlina.

its finally saturday and im so happy. i love weekends. im meeting my boyfriend later in the morning. cause he got soccer today with his fuchun brothers. i am going to be so bored maybe sitting at one corner alone or with some people? gonna bring something just in case.

i've already applied for enrolled nurse in ktph. hopefully,i get shortlisted cause i seriously need a job. i have no other choice but to work in the ward although i don't really like working in wards. i hope i get into clinics.

as for my part-time job, i think its best to just totally forget about it. no calls no nothing. which means while waiting for ktph to call for my interviews, i won't find any other part time job anymore maybe. so looks like i'll be rotting at home. sigh!

i hate restrictions. i hate people who restrict me whatever i want. you know its very irritating to the max? i don't want people to pamper me so much. i can't even be independent and have the experience and will always need to depend on people if they ocontinue to do that to me. another thing is, this is my life. & i have my own choice to live. they can't expect me to always listen to their decisions eventhough whatever that are mention is partially true. but im big enough to think whats best for me. i am 19 years old and not a kid anymore. gosh, i feel so shackle with my life. FML.

well, if im not shortlisted as a nurse, im going to apply for air stewardess under budget airlines. maybe thats the best that i can do. but i have a problem in swimming. -.- i don't even know how to swim!

hi . yesterday marks my 2nd monthsary with baby! But both of us forget to wish each other. Seriously. Its unhealthy for a relationship. k bye. im so lazy to blog.